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You could call this a diary, but I think it's mostly where I'll comment on stuff every so often. Can't really call it a diary if I don't post on a regular basis :) I think I'll transfer the comments from the main index page to this page every so often because otherwise it gets all cluttered up. And yes, I know I use lots of run-on sentences ;)
2/8/03
It snowed every day this week... but not today :( That's okay... maybe next
year, huh? It was a nice birthday :) Been researching marketing strategies for
my soap company... I'm leaning towards doing direct selling like tupperware
or avon, etc.
I came on to bitch about needy people. Maybe I sound elitist or something, but I've been in a situation in the last few days with a guy who considers himself my friend and I consider him my acquaintance. That in itself can cause issues... but he seems to take liberties that he shouldn't. I have extremely selective of those who I consider friends, and this guy is not and probably never will be a "friend" to me. He was offended that I didn't invite him tonight when my dad took my family out for my birthday dinner... very presumptuous of him. He then started complaining about feeling unloved (without being able to provide a reason for that feeling)... and I'm like DUDE I JUST MET YOU... it's like he meets me and just because we both just moved here and we are (vaguely) the same age, that we should be best friends and blah blah. Erich put it perfectly... the guy "wants the connection of a friendship without the work". I agree. I'm a very difficult person to get to know, and to be completely honest, I can be selfish, especially when it comes to people I don't really know or care about. When it comes to my family and friends, I'll do anything... but if I don't really know you, don't come to me feeling all sorry for yourself, because I'll tell you to quit complaining and get on with life. I just don't tolerate pity parties, I guess. Maybe it would be more considerate of me to be all "sensitive" and "sympathetic" but I'm not that kind of person. If you have an issue, feel free to tell me about it, but don't go on and on every single freakin day about the same stupid thing as if *you* don't have the power to change your own damn life. When life hands you lemons, you make lemonade, you don't stand there with a dumb look on your face complaining about how you have lemons and there's nothing you can do about it.
I've never been good with needy people. I'm so independent that I can't tolerate people hanging on to me. I don't think that's a bad thing, I think it's just a personality trait. Especially when these people are complete posers (rolling eyes).
2/3/02
Well, it began snowing today. Forecast is snow for a week! It's coming down
pretty hard... my 23rd birthday is on Friday so maybe I'll have a white birthday!
I hope so... I've never had one of those before.
Current frusturations: Why can't people understand that I *enjoy* being single? I mean, maybe I'm being too picky, but the thing is I've never been in a relationship with anyone who could give me butterflies, make my heart stop, etc. However, I have felt that before with one person, so I know it's possible... and I feel like I'd be settling if I "gave up" on the idea of waiting for the right guy. The way I figure it is this: I don't need a boyfriend to make my life complete - I love my life just as it is. Someday I'll find the person that God intended for me, but for now, I'm doing just FINE. I've been told I'm too picky, but I guess I feel like if I have to wait until I'm 40 to find the right one, I'll wait. But I sure as hell won't be holding my breath... I'm sick of people who think they need to be in a relationship with someone to feel worthwhile. And they don't understand me when I say I *want* to be single... it's like they can't comprehend someone who would actually be alone by choice? Well, I've always liked solitude, I guess. Okay, so I'm venting about a specific person, but he's been really annoying. Not very subtle either... even when I tell him flat out I wouldn't be with him ever, he still won't give up. Makes me wanna scream sometimes. If I didn't feel so sorry for him, I'd probably not talk to him at all...
Plans: I have lots of them :) I recently found out a few things about CSU...
one being they offer a Bachelor's degree in Wildlife Biology (wow!), which is
the general direction I wanted to go in, so I'm gonna major in that instead
of Zoology. I don't think I'm gonna go to vet school... it's too much school,
and plus I don't really love the medical aspect as much as I think I should
in order to be a veterinarian. What I think I should do is get a bachelor's
in Wildlife Biology and then go for a Masters in it as well. I want to work
in the conservation/rescue field... Maybe even someday I'll have my own TV show
like Steve Irwin! Probably not :) But ever since I was a little girl, I always
loved God's creatures and was bringing injured animals home, even snakes! I'm
not 100% sure that's the exact thing I will end up doing, since I tend to change
my mind on this subject A LOT, but I know for sure this is the general direction
that I was meant to go in.
So basically, my plan is to find a job and work for a year, and then return
to school at CSU next January. I have 2 years left on a Bachelor's, and I'll
probably do summer school so I can graduate in 2005. Then, I have 2 years for
a Master's degree, but if I get a good job offer, I might skip the Masters.
In the biologist field, you really need to have a masters or about 10 years
of experience in order to get a really good job. I'd be better off getting a
Masters, but I don't really like school so I might end up taking a little time
off after my BS and working before I start on my MS.
Soap: Did you guys know I make soap? It's a home business :) I kind of "fell" into a wholesaleing account when I got here, so as soon as our house is built and I get my workshop up and running, I'll be able to make more soap and sell it to this lady... she wants to market my products in her retail stores. I don't just make soap... I make anything you'd ever find at a bath & body store. Lotions, scrubs, balms, salves, lip gloss, liquid & bar soap, sunburn spray, aromatherapy stuff, incense, etc. You name it, I create it. It's one of my favorite things to do, and I hope to someday have a physical store where I can sell my stuff. That's pretty far off, though. I know I'd be a great business owner, since I went to school for it for 4 years, but that's not where my life is leading me at the moment. It's nice to have someone who wants to buy my stuff though cuz it can get expensive... I'd like for my hobby to be able to support itself! Eventually I'll make a website/storefront for it, and it'll have pics and everything.
Project: I'm writing a book :) I was complaining to my mom that while there are tons of books with soapmaking directions and recipes, there aren't any MARKETING books for that genre. No books that tell you how to MARKET your soap. So, she told me *I* should write the book :) I figured, it's a good idea. By the time I'm done, I'll have all the info I need to know how to market this product, and then I'll be able to pay for my hobby. And if someone wants to buy my book, I'll email them an e-book or I can even print off copies at Kinko's. So it's a win-win situation... I started a few weeks ago, and am just going to be researching for quite some time, most likely.
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